The “needy-wretch” in me has value too
A reflection from "embrace the darkness" training with the light dark institute.
Coming out of 4 days of light-dark institute training — on exploring how to how to approach life with radical acceptance and create pleasure from the things I can’t change.
When I first heard the words “radical acceptance” I imagined a disempowered version of myself that doesn’t know how to get what she wants.
This training was welcoming that version of me, which was terrifying at first.
It brought out the disempowered “needy-wretch darketype” who’d been hiding in the shadows, and welcomed her into a ritual theater scene where she could be fully expressed & appreciated for her value.
As it turns out, being needy has its perks.
There’s a “needy wretch” in me who…
Is clear on the depth of connection she wants.
Knows exactly how she wants to feel.
Asks for what she wants.
Is willing to own her needs again, and again, and again.
I’m learning to accept life as it comes and to reach for what I want.
I’m learning to own the magic within me by following my desires no matter what the outcome.
To feel the pain of rejection fully and to find pleasure in the sensations that come with it.
If I’m getting “no’s” when following a desire, it’s a gift that creates the space for a “yes” elsewhere.
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