Embracing the Divine Within: the Power of Sexuality as the Path to Liberation
The profound connection between sexuality and spiritual growth, after breaking free of religious beliefs and shame.
I've found the divine in ALL the places I was taught to be ashamed of.
It's in the swaying of my hips.
It's in the intensity of anger and grief.
It's in the primal expression of my growl.
It's in the pleasure of my orgasm.
My husband and I are landing in Mexico for sacred sexuality training with ISTA - and I feel a fire burning in me after watching The Starling Girl on the plane - a film depicting a Southern Christian family and a young teen’s journey with the shame of sexual desire and the rebellion of following her internal compass. This was me for decades.
Just a week ago, we finished a 3-month couples training, w/ Ethan Henson teaching Holographic Flow. To stabilize secure attachment, masculine / feminine polarity dynamics, and learning Orgasmic Meditation practice within partnership - combined with luminous Tantra teachings (more to come on this life changing experience).
And I'm noticing I'm more receptive than ever. I can also feel the solidity of power in my body - I've met the dominatrix in me - and her commitment to destroy anything in the way of union.
I can see how my primal nature is safer to express, my womb and yoni are leading me, and the solidity of my attachment with
is stronger than ever before. And I'm so fortunate to be spending my time in programs like this.Personal development and spiritual growth are now a way of life.
When I first got into personal development work, I thought I needed to “fix myself” so one day when I could be whole - so I could be loved. Given how I was raised, that mindset made sense.
I grew up a pastor’s daughter in an evangelical Christian church, in the South. That means people were giving prophesies (including me at the age of 8), speaking in tongues, and we had a bad-ass electric guitarist in our worship band.
I still believe my dad's music has always channeled the divine, and my childhood dancing and signing have been my connection points to God.
I also believe the indoctrination and messages I picked up from the church are no longer aligned with what I know to be true.
As it turns out:
I am not to be shamed for my sexuality. I am to be celebrated for it and liberated by it.
I'm not a sinner who needs to be forgiven and saved. I am perfection and am a fractal of the divine - we all are.
I’m not broken. I am already whole and always expanding.
I was home-schooled for middle school, and my version of sex education at the age of 14 was a Christian program called “Passport to Purity” - where my mom taught basic anatomy of a woman, and I got a promise ring to commit to “saving myself for marriage.”
I was raised to believe self pleasure, lust and impure thoughts, sex before marriage, and divorce were all “sins” that would send me to hell.
What I didn't know at the time, was that all of these things were not only critical parts of my evolution, but sexuality and partnership itself would be THE path to awakening, and the direct channel for my connection to the divine.
This feels edgy to write. I rarely share about religion, because I believe that each persons journey is theirs. And it's not my place to tell anyone what to believe. But this is what I believe, and it's given me the most freedom I've ever felt - so it's worth sharing.
All of this personal development and spiritual growth makes me a better coach, a better wife, daughter, sister, and friend - and one day a better mother.
Generations of ancestral healing have happened through letting go of stored trauma in my body, and reprogramming beliefs my mind thought were true.
It was never supposed to be about “fixing what's broken”.
Inner work has become about awakening to the present moment.
It's about remembering the divinity in me and in all living beings.
And it's about expansion.
Resources
ISTA: International School of Temple Arts, Sacred Sexuality Training
https://ista.life/
Holographic Flow: Ethan Henson Couples Program
https://www.facebook.com/HolographicMasteryDojo
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